For one last time I'll listen to your voice
Listen as you spew your lies
Listen as you make me hurt
For one last time I'll pay attention
As you shred my confidence and sink my belief
I will lend ear to your form of love
And borrow heavily from your dictionary in description of me
For one last time I will pick up after myself
Clean my bleeding cuts and tend after my swollen limbs
I will cover my shame in bright flowing dresses and huge flashy stunnas
For one last time I will buy the silence of my children with shillings
Bribe them with phones and the newest consoles
For one last time I will cow my neighbors with pride
Literally scare them into silence with my wealth
I will make them wish they were me
Weeping in a beamer than smiling as I walk to work
I will make them embarrassed to have their happiness and turn their smiles into misery and discontent
For one last time I will threaten to walk out
Then go to my knees when my bluff is called
For one last time; I will plan for one more last time
One last time I will laugh off those stupid plans
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For one last time, I will fret
One last time I will simmer then boil over
For one last time I will raise my voice, my temper or my arm
For one last time hit at the bed
Then one last time the head board and finally I will shove you in anger away
For one last time I will pain
Take all that hurt and dump it to your frame
Pummeling it and strangling it in vain
For one last time I will punch you and kick you
I will get you to speak, to say to me what it is you seek
For one last time I will tremble
Thinking of the fact that I am,in fact, the failure
Sensing that I am the lesser human
That I am NOT even a man
Resorting to violence
Unable to understand
Unable to read emotion
No manly man
For one last time I will accept rejection
Face my insecurities
Wrestle my demons
For one last time I will walk out and get my act together
Treat my woman like the queen she is.
PS:Weak men hit women. "a 2008 report by the Federation of Women Lawyers of Kenya, or FIDA, says almost 75 percent of women they surveyed reported being abused."
wow.....
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